Bodega Rose

by Kesang Marstrand

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Hassles It's Kesang's voice / vocal style, I can't imagine not finding myself enthralled by any musical endeavour she may choose to persue. It's subtle, a shadow upon the soul, a flicker in the dark, a spray of sunshine upon a cold winters morning - that's Kesang.
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released November 21, 2008

Recorded in 2008 at Sertso Studio, Woodstock, NY
Produced by Tom Schmidt

Cover photo by Katrina Berselius, layout by Sawsen Jemmali

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Track Name: Colorless Farewell
I found it at the bottom of a cup
The last taste of you and it came rising on up
Like a siren’s call
In the dim foggy distance
Right behind my bedroom wall

I heard it when we talked on the phone
Ashes where a bridge used to lead all the way home
And then you let me go, and everything settled back
Into a safe and conjured flow

And the flag was at half-mast
Waving a colorless farewell
And whatever your intentions
They’re secrets that you’ll never tell

I held you to a promise you made
One of a handful I watched wither and fade
And it was always unclear
The line between things you despised
And the things you held dear

And so you gave me what was left of my things
Sweet relief, as sweet as the song a bluebird sings
On a soft summer day
And I bet if you listen close enough you’ll hear it coming your way
Track Name: Real Boy
You were always more
Symbolic than human to me
So solid
Not bones, flesh, water, blood
Not another child
At the mercy of all this

But you're a real boy
Through and through
And I was once more symbolic
Than human to you
A real boy through and through, a real boy

You were statuesque
And everybody else
Moved so recklessly
Trying to find themselves
In the deep, endless blue
All of us were there
Everyone but you
Or so it seemed
But you're a real boy
When all is said and done
And you say you think that you are
The most reckless one
A real boy when all is said and done, a real boy
Track Name: Grow a Garden
Scaling the wall for a loose stone
To let a little light in
And when the whole thing comes down
I’m gonna grow a garden

Violets and black-eyed-susans
Dahlias and chamomile
Impatiens and bleeding hearts
And anything that grows wild

Birds and bees
All of a sudden they’ll be everywhere
And the wind will tease
The worry out of our every care

How grand would that be
Won’t you grow
Grow a little garden
Grow a garden with me
Track Name: Lioness
Untameable lover
Volatile friend
You’ve embossed your body
On my floor again
For you I’ve learned to play
The floorboards mute
And trained my garden to grow
Without taking root

Am I your lioness
Am I your only, only one
‘Cause when you’re in from the woods
This is where you come

I claimed this plot
And you claimed me
A landowning woman
With electricity
You bring me your wilderness
And other precious things
But the plumes are stained with blood
Where your teeth have torn the wings

Am I your lioness
Am I your only, only one
‘Cause when you’re in from the woods
This is where you come
Track Name: The Choir Sighed
I found love
Playing down in the Alibi
He was singing warm and low
And bending notes up high

The November cold leaned into the night
Said go on and try to catch a spark
Of the gaslight

I pulled thorns out of my tongue
I twisted strings already tightly strung

And I said
What of colors that only bloom at night
And then the day breaks black and white

So many colors only bloom at night
And then the day breaks black and white

But the choir sighed and we were
Lullabied away

I found love
In a room that had no floor
Just a narrow bed and a sun-bleached
Bed sheet for a door

Upon the warmth and scent
Of your skin
I slept lightly but still I
Fell deeper in
Track Name: Any Kind of Bridge
Any kind of bridge would be useless now
The only distance is one we allow
We both love our own languages best
I’m caught up in sounds and you in pictures, I guess

And now you’ve outgrown the child in me
And weren’t you the one who set her free

Late to bed and early to rise
I’m getting stars under my eyes
Shades of violet I’ve never seen
Rest of the world, palest green

And now you’ve outgrown the child in me
And weren’t you the one who set her free

I feel as tall as the trees tonight
And I’m feeling dangerously light
I could float away upon a sigh
And sail down slowly against the sky

But now you’ve outgrown the child in me
And weren’t you the one who set her free
Track Name: The Slightest Sound
Where has my baby gone
I searched high and low
In sun and storm
He left no letter
Neither no farewell
Just an empty house
And the neighbors won’t tell
Me nothing

I rush to the door
At the slightest sound
And get all worked up
To get broken down

Where has my baby gone
And will he ever
Come home
I sleep through the day
And I’m up all night
Since he left me
Ain’t one thing been right

So I rush to the door
At the slightest sound
And get all worked up
To get broken down

Where has my baby gone
I searched high and low
In sun and storm
He left no letter
Neither no farewell
Birds sing in the yard
But they don’t tell me nothing
Track Name: Today Next Year
I want to take your hand
Slide my fingers between yours
Palm to palm
And mute all of the dissonant chords

I want to know what this is
This lonliness that feels so free
I know I can’t keep you
And you know that you can’t keep me

And now I’m thinking that I should’ve sung you
Happy birthday, softly with my lips against your ear
So I’ll do it in my mind now and I’ll do it in the flesh
If we’re together today next year
Next year

I want to let you sleep
But I can’t seem to keep still enough
You say this way
You fall faster and harder in love

I want to take your picture
As you look the other way
Capture the goodbye
That goodbye cannot say
Track Name: When You Returned
You stood at the door
With the fog at your feet
And the grey sky turned white
While you waited

Inside, the warm sound
The bustling around
Of women and children
At suppertime

How she longed for you when you were gone
And still shone brighter than anyone
Everyone knew what lesson you learned
When they heard you knocking
When they knew you'd returned

She came to the door
And she was even more
Arresting than memories
Of nights long past

She led you inside
And the warms sounds of home
Shook you to the bone
She was shaken too

How she longed for you when you were gone
And still shone brighter than anyone
Everyone knew what lesson you learned
When they heard you knocking
When they knew you'd returned
Track Name: Thin Skin
Poison flowers
Are blooming everywhere
I can taste
Their perfume in the air

The way it
Gently pricks my tongue
Same way
My old lover's kisses stung

I have no way of knowing
Whether I'll ever be weathered enough
Goodness knows you need a thin, thin skin
To feel this kind of love

Like tanged chimes
In a wayward breeze
We sang
Uncertain melodies

Our silhouettes
Against the dusty sun
Were ebon shapes
That moved as one

I have no way of knowing
Whether I'll ever be weathered enough
Goodness knows you need a thin, thin skin
To make peace with this kind of love
Track Name: Bodega Rose
Rainy bodega roses
The shop never closes
They change shifts at dawn
Even in the smallest hours
Fresh cut red flowers
But you just walk on

My love, my grey-eyed
City child
We could've grown wild
We could've grown wild
But this is what we chose
The endless night
The bodega rose

Odd shadows of trees in the park
Claim the darkest dark
While we sleep
Tangled beneath the covers
Tangled in each other
And try to dream deep

My love, my grey-eyed
City child
We could've grown wild
We could've grown wild
But this is what we chose
The endless night
The bodega rose

Silence is wedded to sound
That comes up through the ground
Singing for us
But few things moves us like before
Nothing anymore
Is what it once was

My love, my grey-eyed
City child
We could've grown wild
We could've grown wild
But this is what we chose
The endless night
The bodega rose

And it was no kind of test
We just chose the loneliness
We bore the best